Sisters...

"More than Santa Claus, your sister knows when you've been bad and good."
~Linda Sunshine

This, as a sister of four, i can tell you is true. Its close to annoying how accurate they are in telling you the horrible truths about yourself that you know to be true, and yet, have denied so well.

My sisters have never held back or hesitated from pointing out all my mistakes, but the greatest thing I receive from their criticisms is their hidden advice and well concealed forgiveness. And though at that moment I may hate it, I love how they always know what I'm thinking.

I love how even if they are possibly the last person you want to be by your side, they are still there when you need them, never faltering.

Which makes it all the more difficult when i make a mistake. I burn myself inside when i think of the horrible mistakes I've made with them. I wish I could be as good a sister to them as they are to me.

Without thinking it through or listening to the hidden words in her voice, I blurt out something insensitive and selfish, and by the time I realize the true intent of her words its too late, and I've already rejected her, and there's no going back.

Apologies fall short, but again, she'll forgive me.

But I'll never forgive myself, for not being able to be there for her, as she was for me.